Diary of a Aching Heart
TUMBLR GET WRITTEN ON WAYYYY MORE THAN MY DIARY! NOT GOOD WHATS THE POINT OF HAVIN A JOURNAL/DIARY IF IM ALLOWING TUMBLR TO TAKE OVER!
i feel sorry for Jay! His dad deals with him when he wants, His grandmother or whatever she is ______________ no comment! (never dealt with a dead beat grandma) and he has 3 aunts which are MY 3 sisters! I CAN say he has a uncle & grandfather over there but everyone else is irrelevant.
His dad is soo somtimin he does for him WHEN HE WANTS and deals with him WHEN HE WANTS. its funny how HE got me pregnant on purpose but yet does nothing for him unless its on his time! & according to him there is never time! you talkin bout a nigga trapped me! tell a nigga his son need food he tell you to wait 2 more weeks til he get paid again or either he has to buy 100 somethin dollars on weed before his son get fed! tighten up when ya son hungry you on his time he comes first you should want to do everything possible to make sure ya son fed
His grandma…. she treat Jay exactly as she planned. found out i was pregnant first thing she call and say ” I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE BABY! I DONT WNAT TO BE BOTHERED WITH IT. JASON NOT TAKIN CARE OF THE BABY AND ILL MAKE SURE OF THAT…..” and blah blah blah. And she doin just that. Always have Always will! Definition of a dead beat.
His aunt she a facebook thug & she on a pussy hoe level. Ok maybe i went too far cause she only like 12 but who be on that bitchassness on facebook! hoe call my phone with that shit or come to my house got somebody waitin to tap that ass! WAITIN ON THAT DAY =)
His grandfather & uncle! they cool havent really had no problems with neither one of them. They havent really jus decided because they mad at me that they will shut Jay out there life.
THEY CAN CALL ME PETTY BUT HONEST TO GOD ITS THE TRUTH!
we always want what we can’t have. but does it mean that we’ve got to wait an eternity for something that we will never obtain?
but no matter how hard you try, you can never seem to let go… so you continue to wait. that lonely and agonising wait of silence.
i wish you knew the damage you put on my heart the pain i feel from you. i thought i was ya daughter well i kno im ya daughter but i dnt understand when you act out the way you do. i will never talk down on my son because im his support team not his enemy. stop the madness please and love me for me and support my decisions be the one i can come tonot the one ready to say i told you so. be the one to encourage me not the one to discourage me. you say things that i will never forget but of course but i’ll forgive you and love you still. im better that what you let me kno i am and i will prove it.
love,
Alexandria
THE DAY I REALLY COMMITTED TO YOU AND ONLY YOU! the day you had my whole heart in your hands and the key to it! i remember that night like yesterday when you asked me to be ya girlfriend. I stood by ya side thru thick and thin and was there for you when nobody else wasnt. dealin with family drama that started over you. so much for you man. and i get the worst thank you in return. your way of showin me you love was painful and depressing. treated me like i was ya everything for like the first year then shit got sour! you wanted me to stay and i wanted to stay. prayin everynight for change from you for god to send us a angel for god to send me a sign. i got plenty of signs mostly tellin me to leave but i took em as signs tellin me we could work thru any and every obstacle. how could i be so stupid? cause of course i was in love but im older and wiser now and i kno the truth. i’ll forever love you but i dnt think i can love you the way you want no more
